7/11/10

Random Thoughts: July

So ayun nga. Wala akong blog post for June. Sa sobrang busy ko sa school at work hindi ko na maasikaso ang aking cyber life (LOL ang jologs). Well... ano pa nga ba ang ipo-post ko dito eh recently medyo monotonous ang mga araw ko. Aral sa umaga, work sa gabi. Nahahapo na nga ako. Isa pang bagay na medyo kinaiinisan ko this month eh yung fact na hindi ko nabisita ang dagat. Meron pa naman akong tendency na ma-demotivate kapag hindi ako nakakapag-out-of-town. So I really need to plan an impromptu trip ASAP. LOL. Ang oxymoronic no? Buti nalang meron akong mga kaibigang laging game, hehehe. Matapos lang 'tong paghihirap ko, I'll just hop on a random bus and get lost.

Recently I've been trying to reevaluate my life. Day by day, I'm starting to feel how superficial my world has become. I'm starting to realize how my daily routine has thrown me into a vacuum of conformity. I'm slowly becoming mainstream. I'm not saying that being in the mainstream is bad-- it's just that, the mainstream is putting me into a mold, a confined space, a pattern which does not fit the contours of my twisted mind.

I took a shower. It somehow washed away the unintelligible voices in my head. Then I studied myself in front of the mirror. I saw my soul. It's gray-- a sign that I've been living a predictable life. Again, the little voices are back. I banged a block of ice heavily into the wall, the thud echoed through the night. I put these shards of crystal into a glass of elixir, lit a cigarette and smoked all my worries away... the voices began to peter out. I closed my eyes and wished that I'll have a beautiful dream.

4 comments:

  1. hahaha,.. relate na relate ako dito ah,.. wala ng cyberlife, ni tumapos ng libro di ko magawa, at least ikaw you have a more valid reason than me kasi you're working and studying pero ako, anung bang meron at i feel do drained out. Out of town nga kelangan naten dito, at talaga lang ha, hop on a random bus and get lost teka are you talking bout me sa phrase na yun eh ako yung ganun eh,.. tsk,tsk,tsk,.. nahawaan na ba kita? LOL Tara na kasi, kulang lang tayo sa lakwatsa! Pray na ma-post ko na blogs ko kasi lahat sila nasa draft folder lang! Argh!

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  2. Erratum: anung bang meron at i feel so drained out.

    Wahahaha, antok na ko! Good night world. Let me at least escape from your cruelty for a while. Hope I'll have a beautiful dream as well.

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  3. Wahahaha dapat talaga iba yung profile ng erratum? LOL. Yeah, how I wish magawa ko nga yang random trip na 'yan all by myself. Hindi makagala dahil walang pera hahaha! Naku sana matapos na 'tong paghihirap ko. Let's just hope for the best Megs :D

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  4. wahaha, sorry naman di kasi ako nakasign in nung ginawa ko yung una!LOL adik lang,.. Hay naku sana nga Teng, lets's hope for the best. hay pera kung madami lang ako nun di niyo na din ako mahahagilap! LOL

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